Feeling a Little Lost

Hello,
Yesterday, Greg, Colby, Nick and I went to clinic for Nick's last chemo through his port. It was quiet for us. The boys played the Wii together and then worked on beads. Greg & I usually go separately, alternating every other week and we bring our laptops to do work. We both decided it was a day to take for our family and be together, so the wait at clinic was uneventful. Nick was coughing all weekend and feeling a little tired so I was surprised to see his counts so high:

WBC: 8.3
RBC: 10
APC: 6,000
He received his Vincristine and Methotrexate through his port and we were done for the day. I really thought Greg and I would be crying the whole time, but neither of us did. I think as our Nurse Paula said.... "You both look like a lot of the parents do on their last day... Lost." "That's okay because your life will start to change and try to get back to normalcy." Of course I had a good excuse to go back to clinic in 2 weeks and check his counts. He will also need his second flu shot and one more dose of the Pantemine (antibiotic) through his port. After his port is removed or as Nick says "de-accessed for good", he will remain on Bactrim for 6 months, while his counts fully recover. We have scheduled his spinal and bone aspiriation on 12/16. He will recieve his sleepy medicine, check counts and they will take a sample at this time. He will not receive any chemo into the spine, which is good news. Then we wait a couple of weeks and schedule for his port removal with the surgeon.
Nick will officially finish with his medicines (steroids and 6MP) this Saturday, so we are not quite done, but almost.
We took the boys to Dave&Busters for lunch and games. We all had a great time and just let the boys be boys. A few more days to go........